..true peace...

Is found where one least expects it, and when they aren't consciously looking for it.

I found when I am at peace, I am usually camping, and sitting in front of the fire we've made. There is nothing more peaceful than this. Or so I thought. I hate being wrong, but in this case, I don't mind to much.

I found myself just sitting and watching my Goddess sleep last night, and I was just in awe at how beautiful she is. It probably only a couple of seconds of watching for fear of waking Her up, but to me, time stopped.

I'm finding more and more about these "simple things" in life people talk about. Some of them are indeed, simple and uneventful. Those show me I'm paying too much attention to something other than what I should be. However, when moments like this come up, I find myself positioned in a reality I created. One that seems to be.. fantastic!

Here's to hoping it lasts for good many regenera...erm.. years. :)

Yes it was a geek reference to Doctor Who, shoot me. I like having some fun.

Has it been that long?

What can change the nature of a man?

An immortal question, from an immortal game, staring an immortal character. True geeks will get the reference, others, well.. there's google.

Much of my life mirrors that game. The notion that you truely can be anyone you want. Even the dtrongest minds needs help on occasion. A journey to find out just who you really are. A place where people live by the choices they make. Where consequences affect  others more than yourself.

Some thing this wanderer is still learning.

In my life I've made choices I'm not proud of. I've made mistakes. I've made enemies. I've also made choices for the better. Made friends. I've helped people as well as helped myself. I doubt the karmic scales balance, but I'm working on it.

Through out this existance, I've wandered. A lone soul in a seemingly empty world. Constantly on the search for something, be it physical, emotional, or whatever, that will help me stop wandering and settle down.

This past weekend, while on vacation with my Goddess, I found just what i was looking for. Sort of.

I know now that I will always wander. For that is who I am. However, I wander with a companion now. Someone who's taught me the answer to the immortal question: "What can change teh nature of a man?".  I have to admit, the answer surprised me. It's not anything I would have thought. To each person, the answer if different. For me the answer is what I've been searching for this whole time.

I've finally found it. My hopes, my dreams, my Goddess. Love. The answer?

For me, it's the only answer. The one that makes me complete. The one that will hopefully fix this broken soul of mine, and truely love life again. (Which so far it seems to be).. the answer...

Salvation.

ps. the game in question is Planescape:Torment. Only the best computer RPG ever made.

... changes...

Ahh, well like everyone else today, we're talking about the swearing in of our 44th president. Congrats Mr. Obama.

Still I have to wonder, will he have the strength and ability to take on congress and make the changes we need? Will this be the culmination of all our dreams? soo many questions..

Still, there's on thing to focus on today. Hope. The most dangerous emotion we as humans know. No other emotion sets up up for a painful fall, or happiness to new heights. I'm still not a registered voter, I'm still far to cynical. However, for the first time, I actually feel a little hope. I hope Mr. Obama does go through with his promise of change. I hope politics as we know do change. I have a little hope that maybe, if he can't control congress and the special interest groups/lobbyists that maybe.. just maybe politics as we know has had a wake up call.

Even if Mr Obama doesn't succede in his goals, I hope that'll he be open and honest with  us. More so than any other president. I hope he tries his hardest and scares Washington in realizing that the American people will no longer tolerate the status quo.

So I'll say this. If our 44th president does half of what he's promised us, if he rewards our faith in him with change, if he doesn't betray our trust, then he'll have my vote in 4 years if he wishes to run again. There's something about him, maybe it's the talk of change.. maybe it's hope that Washington needs to change.. maybe.. I dunno.. but there's something in the air. There's something that is amazing is how he talks to people.

Of course, Senetor palpatine was the same way before he became emporer... (Yes it's a star wars reference, deal with it)..

So.. here's to change.. here's to the culmination of hopes and dreams.. here's to  Mr. Lincoln and Mr. King. Here's to hope. Our president will need our help to change, even though I'm not a voter, I'll do what I can to help him. I hope you will to.

So that's it from a more human than he'd like blogger. I'll be watching the inauguration, and the future.

Here's to the USA. Here's to us. Here's the future.

..and today passes another friend...